who wants a baby??

so i am tying so hard to be ok with all of the baby's illnesses. i really am. it just seems like for the past month it has been one thing or another. i don't know how much more i can take. at the dr's office they know my voice. and he is only nine months old. what a stressor! this time, he has been vomiting. everywhere. and my truck smells like baby vomit, oh and i got to watch him play in it yesterday. all over his new car seat. i admit, i totally freaked out on hubby. but after we found out what was wrong, i have this eerie calm about it. just like everything will be ok. i know that God will take care of him, after all, he has survived having us as parents this long. :) i also know he is a strong kid, anyone who can do as well as he has with all of the crap he has been through can get through blisters on their mouth and throat. the best part is i am trying so hard to stay positive. i know he will be ok, i really do. he is such a happy booger. when hubby brought him to see me today at work, his eyes lit up like it was the best thing ever to see his mamma. there is just nothing better. i just pray God will continue to give me strength.