Silence

As part of our all-church journey, we are exploring things that consume us. Hubby and I have decided that TV consumes most of our time; way more in fact than other things. So this week, we are called to fast from television for seven days. This is so much harder than I thought it would be. When we go to sleep, we typically have the television on while we are laying there. Now, we sleep in silence. During the baby's four hour naps, I typically watch television. Now, I am playing on the Internet and about to start reading a book. It's odd realizing how we spend our time. Obviously, work and taking care of the baby consumes a lot of my life, but those are necessities. Those are things I am not fasting from. It's just weird to be sitting here, silent with only my ipod and myself. Scary. Very scary.

Update...

I am waiting on the world to change. It's officially up to two of us now, from three. I am not a patient person. This is something I have always struggled with; ask hubby. Birthdays and Christmases are a nightmare for him. I think God is trying to teach me a lesson. I HATE WAITING!!!

Four years later...

Happy Anniversary, sweetie. I love you very much. And just think, three more years until that seven year itch kicks in and I kick you to the curb! HAHA. Have a wonderful day at work honey. I love ya!

My son loves me...

So, we need to start from the beginning. Hubby and I went out Saturday for a date. We cashed in a Christmas gift, and went to P.F. Chang's for dinner. Then, for dessert, we went to 20 Brix. It was good, the atmosphere was great, the dessert fantastic, and the wine was fine. Thing is, it is located in a now-infamous apartment that once housed my dear hubby, along with two of his close friends. This apartment was the most foul place EVER, it was full of dirt, mold, smelley crap, and yet it was full of memories. The first time he told me he loved me, the planning of our wedding, the walks, tallks, the TURTLE (ahem...Don Dudley and Scott Sulek.) Anyway, it was lovely, and we really enjoyed ourselves.
My mom had booger, who was coming off of a stomach virus for the night, which was lovely.
I woke up extra early, about 5 am to said stomach virus attacking every inch of my body. This was Sunday morning. I didn't get out of bed until last night. I called into work for the first time ever. I didn't see booger until today except to take him to school, which was about fifteen minutes. It was a disaster. My son loves me. He gave me the most awful feeling I have had in over a year. What an anniversary gift.
GOOD News is I have lost eleven pounds in a week!! I am sure some of this is from eating right and working out, but as hubby said: "It's like the movie, honey. 'One more stomach flu away from my goal weight.'" Except I am like twenty away.

OH NO!!

Ok, first of all, it is SOOO early. I have been up since about five o'clock this morning. Which means that I am going to need a long nap today while booger naps. I have had a lot of anxiety this morning. Granted, I have lots of reasons to be stressed right now, but I need my sleep. This should explain a bit of the randomness of this entry.
A lot of you know that I have an obsessive addiction with a particular coffee company. I know that it is an expensive addiction, and I have been making it a home quite often to save money. However, I realize this simple little drink is causing a lot of money to go down the drain. A LOT. So I have decided to give it up. Cold turkey. Right now. I have been praying about ways we can pay down our MASSIVE piles of debt in order to be free of our debt and financial bondage. This is a big step. This is also a step in the right direction toward giving God all of me.
I realize it is only a latte, but it is more than that to me. I am working hard to be healthy, and working out. We were blessed with a membership to the YMCA for three months, and we are going to take full advantage of taht. We are being better about the foods we eat, excercising, and I am not giong to be fat anymore. I am going to be a healthy active mom for my booger. Does this mean I will not have dessert or my wine anymore? HECK NO!! But it does mean it will be less often. And cutting out this drink will help tremendously. Hopefully, we will be able to come up with the money to continue to pay for the YMCA so that we can continue our healthy journey. I realize that cutting back on coffee will help, as well as there are other ways to work out. We can walk around our neighborhood, swim in the summer, etc. I do feel more motivatied, though, because I know so many people that work out there and want me to succeed, and they want me to join them. It will give me motivation to get off my butt and be better for God, myself, and my boys.
Again, sorry for the randomness. It's early, and without caffiene, my brain may take a little longer to start.